中国人口再一次发挥了全民力量。。。选秀和炒股，真是前仆后继，无边无际。。。。背后的动机或是动力，统而言之名和利也。。。其实并无过错，只是如果过了度，尤其是前者，倒是颇倒人胃口，边际递减的原理，我想主办人应该也懂得的。。。那些漂亮的脸庞，除非真的有天赋，一心要成为影视明星， 不然还不如省下一些扭捏作态的时间，去看看书，充充电。。。如果中国能因为这几年的选秀而成就一个和好莱坞媲美的娱乐帝国，那也算是一种对社会文明的贡献，但希望不是一种牺牲一代霍几代年轻人青春为代价。。。。是热情洋溢还是精神空虚荷尔蒙过度分泌，某一天，历史总会给我们一个判断和交待的。。。

I will have a space trip with my man some day---my new life mission.

That is one of the most romantic ideas I can imagine so far...

Everything is possible.

Boudless life with free soul-sa.

Universe, just wait us.

Fantastic!

 

 

 

 

看着新闻上说到有很多古建筑或者文物保护建筑“因为影响城市建设“要被推倒，我真的很心痛，浑身都感到痛苦。。。我们的祖先给我们留下多少宝贵的遗产，无论自然或是文化。。。我们或许可以给我们的后代留下一座座类似的冰冷的钢筋水泥，还有一大把钞票。。。然后呢？我感觉我们的城市，我们的文化在被一个个张牙舞爪的挖掘机掏空。。。当明天，我们只能坐在电脑前，浏览各种已成历史的旧照片的时候，我们会后悔为什么当初要破坏那些美丽的建筑，破坏我们的那仅剩下的那一点点审美的享受呢？

可是后悔有什么用呢？

我没有一双强有力的臂膀去阻止什么，我只希望，我的后代们，能够记住我今天的心情，能够记住，今天还有人为倒下去的文化而哀悼。。。

我不忍，但又如何呢？

我们有选择吗？

一个有思想，有见地的男人，怎能不讨女人欢心呢？

it is the first time I watched this kind of melody competition...Ji jie is the one who touched me...He is cool, He is a Man. I am proud of him.He chose to give up when he won the competition, as he really knows what he wants. He knows what he is doing. He is a King. China needs man like this.Come On, all the MAN! Show your POWER!

戒贪欲，心平气和，和生福。

   

 觉得那些还在激动无比讨论处女的男人很无聊， 很无能。我崇尚纯真的感情，为此我心甘情愿的付出。男人对女人身体的崇拜无可厚非，但每个人都有自己的审美观，喜欢处女是一种，喜欢成熟女人是另一种。是不是处女只不过是时间问题，其实，要说贞洁，我认为最好是定义为当你和你的男朋友在一起的时候，你不会同时和别人如何如何。爱一个人，是爱她的灵魂，愿意和她分享生活中的甜蜜和哀愁。一个男生，如果没有健康的心态去与女生相处，我想他是不快乐的，而且也会伤害到别人。每个人都有自己的性爱好，本无可厚非，但是口口声声把自己标榜成仁义道德之典范而侮辱他人，实在不见得高明到哪里去。一个没有宽容之心的人，是不愉快的。

China needs more sex education, not only to have more knowledge about our physical bodies and how to enjoy your sexual relations, but also the psychology side, learn how to love, how to live along with your partners. Let sex become an art in life, an delight entertainment, an lovable touch, why not?

Only 3 weeks left.....have to hurry up for my paper.......no opt out, my student life is a one-way trip....

After finishing this paper, I will reconsider my life.....I will definitly go to some temple this summer...I need guidelines, I need my compass....I need Jack Sparrow come back! Life will get better, I promise, I will not give up my dreams, I will continue my fantacy! CATA, I TRUST YOUR POWER!

I CRY FOR MAN,

       AT MOST 1 LITER.

        WHEN THE LAST DROP OF TEAR COMES OUT,

           DONE.

 I SWEAR.

          

      I PLAN TO BE A STRIPPER LATER,

           HAVE A CRAZY BAR,

            ENJOY CRAZY BEAUTIFUL FREAKY PEOPLE.

 

           OR I COULD BE A NUN,

           KEEP AWAY FROM MAN.

          ONLY WITH BUDDA.

 

          IF I DIE, I DO NOT WANNA GO TO ANY FORM OF WORLD,

         I DO NOT KNOW NOTHING, I DO NOT WANT TO WORRY ABOUT ANYTHING. THERE IS NO EASY WAY TO BE ANY CREATURE.

 

           MOST OF PEOPLE LIE FOR SOME REASONS...BUT THERE ARE SOME SMARTER PEOPLE, THEY HIDE INSTEAD OF LIE.

                THE THING THEY HIDE IS CALLED SECRET. ONLY GOD AND YOUSELF KNOW IT. IT IS ONLY YOUR OWN SHIT.

                    NO CONFESSION. 

 

                       

             MAYBE YOU WONDER WHY I AM COLD,

          REMEMBER THE TEARS ARE WARM,

           AS THEY TAKE AWAY ALL THE WARMTH FROM MY SOUL,

              NOTHING WILL BE LEFT.

              

    I AM SURE YOU WILL CONTINUE YOUR SUNSHINE LIFE,

                 YOU ARE A RICH MAN, YOU HAVE EVERYTHING, EXCEPT ME.

                  

                I AM A CAT, NOT DOG.

                  AND

                I AM A WOMAN.

 

           

                        

                  

         

               

          

            

              

               

            

 

              

What is PERFECT?

What is LOVE?

And what is PERFECT LOVE?

 

I just realize that Love is not only a substance but also a process. You can feel how it is around you, sweet, spicy, sour, or bitter or unknown...and you also know when it happens, the first time you meet this person, three monthes later or even longer? I am not sure if there is a model for love, like some kind of curve with different slopes and maybe you have to find out where is the turning point, if it is maxium point of minimum , or, more precisly, it is a time series problem....Poetry is an art of mathmatics, so is love.

 

I like using taste to describe my feelings on something, but now I found out that smell or aroma is also a good way of expression. It is more ambiguous than taste but this is also an essential property of love. Aroma of darkness, you can not see,you can not hear, you do not know where it comes from, you just know there is something around you, it is even difficult to give a straight response to it....it is there, but..wait a second, hmm, I am not really sure.....it is not stable coz it is not so chaseable...But your curiousity arise and you do not want to lose the clue of the mystery....You are flying, you are running, following something you believe its existence...you also believe that your sense of smell does not betray you...you call it Intuition...you are cerntain on the uncertainess...and you like it.

 

For some people, love is something specific, in terms of time, place, and person. Others view love more like a concept in life. They want to understand and explain this concept from different experiences or sources.  Some people asked me: why love is painful but previously it was so sweet? Is my love gone? My answer is: love is how it is, you are experiencing it, you are there with it...The sense of love is never gone, think about sky, no matter how it is, blue, clear or grey,gloomy, you are still under its covery.

 

I wrote something called: Love is an ability. Some day I will share with people, and hopefully it gives some thoughts about this classical topic and also helps someone on this small planet.

 

The last point I want to say here is, no matter how often I mention about LOVE, it is not the only thing in life, and it is not the final goal of life. I said earlier, happiness is the pursuit and love is one part of it.

 

Enjoy your life, it is a mess fantacy.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

电台里的情歌播不停，

    24 小时，演绎初恋， 热恋，争吵，受伤，分手，徘徊

       无论怎样，

         爱情永远是主打。。

    

             

       

      

原来，最难受的感受，是没有感受。。。

  原来，分手也未必是爱的末路结果，完全抹去记忆中的你我，才是解脱。。。

     原来时间是宇宙最神奇的花朵，

           原来， 爱得平淡，才会在转身的那一刻，得到惊喜收获。。。

               原来，我这么爱你，

                  原来，你也这么爱着我。。。

                     原来，情人节很快乐...

 

 

 

love is not that if you are with this man, you have the whole world....basically, you can not get the whole world...

the most important thing is, do not lose yourself in any relations...

when i am in my own world, I am invisble to the external world...

I am safe there...

如果你问我：中国的伤城在哪里？

---〉北京 。

Who is the city with pain?

It is Beijing.Only there.

看到中央最近宣传的一篇文章叫做：民主是个好东西。。。

我猜想这篇文章是写给基层干部百姓看的， 就题目而言，就足够通俗易懂，让我想起了农村里满墙的大字标语，计划生育啦，生产劳动拉，等等。

这是个很中国特色的宣传方式，虽然读书人可能会对这种通俗语言嗤之以鼻， 但作为一种有效的（希望是有效的）通讯手段， 这种语言是必要的。

but I feel a bit disappointed that in 2007, 7 years after entering the 21st centry and 10 years after HK's reunion, the China government began to talk about Democracy---what they are arguing is　ＮＯＴ　ｈｏｗ　ｔｏ　ｂｕｉｌｄ　ｕｐ　ｔｈｅ　ｄｅｍｏｃｒａｔｉｃ　ｓｙｓｔｅｍ　ｂｕｔ　ｓｔｉｌｌ　ａｂｏｕｔ　ｉｆ　ｉｔ　ｉｓ　ｎｅｃｅｓｓａｒｙ　ｔｏ　ｈａｖｅ　ｉｔ．．．．

我们不要口号， 我们要真正的措施实施。

 

 

这是个可大可小的问题。。。可能由于文化历史的原因， 这个问题，对于中国人来说，实在是个话题。

首先，在一个文明的社会里，任何一个人，如果想要放弃贞操，应该都是出于自愿的。 古代中国的包办婚姻，强行规定了所谓妇女的初夜权是只属于其丈夫的。试想一下，将两个毫无感情基础可言的人放在同一张床上，一方对另一方（尤其是女性对男性）必须给与所谓一生一世的忠贞陈诺，这是一件何等不合理的事情啊！一个强权的社会是可以达到短暂的和平的，那只是表面现象。 我不相信一个根本违背人性需求的社会是可以长久和平的，更何况是和谐呢？！

但是，光是自愿二字是否就足够了呢？我认为更重要的是：你是如何选择你的伴侣的？

就我个人而言，我绝对不会因为所谓的寂寞而胡乱找个同伴， yes, sometimes I am alone but i do not really feel so much lonely.I feel some lonely only because I am missing someone but he is not availible at the moment.But generally I am not a lonely girl coz I feel I have so many interests to pursue.I am not idle...

(continue later)

 

 

 

 

 

WOW...i had financial crisis these days and now THANK GODNESS, it was overcomed!

Tum, I learnt this lesson and I will be a shrift girl from now on...I do not want to be bothered by money again!

and Thank you everyone to help me, mentally or financially...Friendship is so sweet!

Thank you my parents...

you see, that is how we grow up....not easy, isn't it?

But that is how we are...how the life is....I do not complain anything here, I just had further and deeper experience of life today...more easy saying than doing--- it is VERY true!

and Tum, u are right again, we are students of life, always, all the time, in different ways......

I love my life more than before

and I understand deeper that why tum you are so fascinated by catastrophy now, although it is a differen thing....

And thank you for the song Fighter...Yes, I wil be stronger from now on!

Thank you my life! IT IS FANTASTIC!

 蔡琴在歌中 唱到：如果你不爱听出塞曲， 觉得调子太悲凉， 那是因为歌中没有你的可爱故乡。。。

没有经历，真的很难真正长大。。。

 

 

I always think about one question: why you love me?

No one will really make a list saying: ok, these are the points you score..I love these points...the man or woman you love is not just an easy mathesmatically add up of these points...

Love can not change the facts itself...I love you, but maybe I do not like your cooking, your cooking wil not taste better or worse as I love you or not. But, since I love you, I wil not so care about your cooking..if your cooking is bad, then I will cook for us..and I will say: well, you have other good sides, your bad cooking will not affect us so much.....

I love you , thus I want to spend time together with you. Our time is sym....Time is speical, we can share time but never can add up two peoples'' time together...you can add money together, though.....

 

Kiss my tum! I am tryin to write down smth which linger on my mind....I am sure you wil read , hehe. Love you!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

看了一些中国女人谈论与外国男人交往的帖子， 有些感想，愿意和大家讨论一下。。

 

首先想说的是，谈恋爱不分国家的，自己看对眼最重要啊。。。。。总体来说，外国男生的嘴巴比较甜， 他们一般会表白，有话直说。。。。。。我自己也是个直的人，所以和他们比较谈得来。。。。。想提醒中国女生一点：当第一次见面或还不熟悉时候，他们称赞你时， 他们表示对你的欣赏，你对他们的最好表示是 谢谢，不要激动。。。。。。女生很容易多想，认为别人对你有意思，然后，有些女生就会一厢情愿。。。。。如果你真的也和那个男生上床了，听我一句：那不代表太多的感情在里面，大家只是在享受生活，和你所谓的爱情还很远。。。。。。我不想说逢场作戏，听起来好像太假。。。只要两人之间还没太多冲突，至少在某一瞬间，还是会有真情流露的。。。。

 

既然上床不等于恋爱，那么难道我们就要完全否定人家吗？ 肯定不是。。。。我想把外国男人大致分作几类：1， 完全就是为做爱； 2， 对中国女人的迷恋是出于好奇，但并不了解太多，等兴趣过了，就说拜。。。。3，有兴趣， 愿意把你当作宝藏一样发掘你，和你慢慢来。。。。

 

很想告诉大家一点：外国男生把喜欢和 爱 分得很清楚， 女性朋友和女朋友界限分明。。。。他们可以和你发生任何你认为他已经爱上你的事情，但对不起，如果你认为这样，你错了，吃亏的是你自己。。。一定沉住气。。。。。让他先表示对你的爱意。。。。。一般来说，一个比较好的外国男生会对你说明他自己的情况：如果他有女朋友了，而且是他喜欢的，一般来说他们会让你对他女朋友保密。。。。聪明的女孩子不要找有女朋友的男生，感情的东西，还是清爽利落点比较好，暧昧可以，但最基本的前提是不要伤害自己。。。。

 

还有一点啊，很多人还没了解对方太多，就为了各种原因嫁了。。。多数人离婚了，要么生活的不好。。。总之一句话，多做些作业，多了解对方，文化背景的确会给你带来不适，能克服的就克服了，不能的就不要勉强。。。。爱一个人容易，相处难。。。。。生活就是这么现实的。。。茅盾这东西，回避不了，但也不要越积越多，到最后再美好的一见钟情也会被毁掉的。。。。。

 

所以，我和他虽然很爱对方，但我也时常提醒自己，要冷静，想要和他真正长久在一起，现在要做的，是享受甜蜜的同时，更加深入对方的内心，对他更多的了解，看他是不是那个能和相处的人。。。。真正爱一个人不是件轻松的事，但要相信，你的努力是会有回报的。。。。我想好好谈次恋爱，真正的恋爱，成熟的爱。。。。。

Kiss my Tum!